Space to day dream.
Space to breathe, exhale, then breathe again.
Space to just be....without clutter, without jam-packed schedules, without commitments?
I have returned from a wonder-filled adventure in the Yucatan that included kayaking, snorkeling, chile rellanos, margaritas and of course, sand, sun, and beautiful water. Since returning, I don't feel really excited by much around me. I see two knitting projects I was going gang-busters on before Trip, that now leave me going "blah." All my energy is being used up at my work and when I go home, I simply want to yawn and relax. Thankfully, my schedule has been easy this week with just one post-work meeting.
My fab coach buddy, Max Daniels, suggested how helpful it is to take time to integrate the experience of the travels with my "real" life. So integration for me means lots of sleep and no TV or other media. I also know that until she told me to simply be in the spaciousness of this post-vacation time, I hadn't fully allowed myself to be in it. In other words, I had fallen into the trap of needing to justify my existence by producing results. Results that look like: food in the fridge to provide a home-cooked meal; trash and recycling bins taken out to meet the schedule; bookkeeping responsibilities for the small business my husband and I own, etc, etc.
Is that what I am, a manufacturer of results? Ickkkkkkky. I sure didn't feel like a manufacturer while on vacation. I sure didn't need to justify my existence. I simply walked around in a swimsuit from one activity to another.
I'm looking for more space in my physical surroundings and in my mental and emotional world. Where do you need more space?